"S" Word Monday!! April 25, 2011



Nothing like getting yelled at by the doctor......


Weight Lost this week (6 weeks 2 days into journey) 4 pounds
TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS: "35.5" pounds
Weight to lose til goal: 91 pounds

Here's what...  MAN AM I IN TROUBLE!!!!  "Doctor" is frustrated that I'm losing weight... "I" am frustrated that he won't let me lose weight.... UGH!!  I felt like I was called into the principles office this morning.  (and trust me, I was called into the principles office a TON in high school, so, I know EXACTLY how that feels -no comments from you, Daddy-smile-)

I was not trying to lose weight this week, honest!! I cheated a LOT.  I was craving funeral potatoes, so I made them.  I wanted pizza, so I ordered one and had a piece, Easter Candy lying around?? Not at this house.. I was the reeses queen this week.  I had one peanut butter cup every day.  My body is in weight loss mode.. What can I do??

New Weight Loss Addition!!!  Thanks to my most supportive and bestest friends in the world, Nettie, Lynds and Jen... I am going to introduce nightly walks into my schedule!!!  I really do have awesome people in my life supporting me.  They are all sticks and runners, but, want to help me on my journey, so, they will take themselves down to my level and "walk".  That's right... "walk".  (smile).  I've already warned them, walk as fast as they want, but, don't speak to me!!! I will be gasping for air, clutching my heart and dry heaving beside them, LOL)  THANKS GIRLS!!! You're the BESTEST!!!!
MY JOURNEY CONTINUES!!!



"S" Word Monday, April 18th, 2011

ANNIE IS OVER!!!

Weight Lost this week (5 weeks 2 days into journey) 1.5 pounds
TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS: "31.5" pounds
Weight to lose til goal: 95 pounds

What a week!!! I thought for sure I had gained weight!! It was crazy eating times, crazy food... I was literally gone this entire week.  Haven't seen Mike.  Haven't seen Izee..  And stress, stress, stress!!
But well worth it.
Our dress rehearsal for the young women was ROUGH to say the least, but, Opening Night was AMAZING!!! Gabs just fell into character and I couldn't have been more proud!! I will post more pics of these as they come in.  My friends had to take the pics, I was running crazy behind the scenes.

Time to recoop, right!!

Here's what...  My physicians assistant told me I can't lose more then a 1/2  pound in the next two weeks.  I say "WHATEVER"!!!  If I stay the same, great.  If  I lose a couple more pounds, that's great also. 

If it would ever stop raining I might go outside and exercise!!!  I'm SO ready for our evening night walking group!!  Are you ready girls?? I bought new shoes and everything!!! (laughing)

Weekly Cravings...  Nothing!!  If I wanted it, I ate it... I wasn't losing weight this week, so, I didn't have any cravings... My stomach has shrunk.  I used to be able to eat a TON but those days are over.  Even when I ate something bad for me, I could only eat a small portion of it, so, all in all... A great week of food!

Can't wait to catch up on some sleep!!!

Here's to another "no weight loss" week!!

MY JOURNEY CONTINUES!!!

 



"S" Word Monday, April 11, 2011



It's a LOOOOONG uphill road....



Have you ever wanted something SO badly...

you could almost taste it???

                            That's where I am this week. 

I am SO ready to wake up, look in the mirror and think, "WOW!!! I have really lost a ton of weight!!".....  After doing this difficult life change for over a month now, it has finally occurred to me that......

                           ...this is a LONG UPHILL battle I am fighting...

It is going to take a verrrrrrry long time to reach to my weight loss goal. 
Of course, there is a bright light on the other side of the hill, but, I have only just begun my ascent......

Not to discount how much weight I have already lost.  I'm proud to know that I have begun the process, but,  find myself getting frustrated because, "my levi's aren't baggy yet"... "my shade shirts aren't falling off my shoulders" ... "my face is still round with the ever slight hint of a double chin".... ugh...

I cannot help but think of the little engine that could, chugging with all of his might up that horribly, steep hill...
"I think I can, I think I can, I think I can"........

Weight Lost this week (4 weeks 2 days into journey) 4.0 pounds
TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS: "30" pounds
Weight to lose til goal: 96.5 pounds

Here's What...  Met with the doctor today.  Although he is proud of my weight loss he is forcing me to plataeu for "THREE STRAIGHT WEEKS"!!!  UGH!!!!!!  He does not want me to lose MORE then TWO pounds over next three weeks, to force my body into a new set point for weight.  SO FREAKING FRUSTRATED!!!  I am SO ready to get this fat off of my body...... a forced plateau??  ever heard of that?? I want to rebel and keep losing.......... but he sent me home with an entirely new diet of things to eat for the next 21 days.... to maintain... totally depleted and depressed... I want this weight off of me yesterday! :-(

Week in review:
1.  Annie opens Friday night at Bountiful High. (and you better all be there!! 7:00) The dog who plays "sandy" in our play "DIED" on Friday last week... We attempted to use my high strung, neurotic dog this week, but, to no avail... She is nutso... We have no choice but to use a human dressed as a dog... WHAT THE??? not happy.  Cast is doing great, but, spring break took a TON of our kids away from three much needed rehearsals... We still need props... We need more parents to volutneer backstage... blah blah blah... the musical is stressful...

2. On a personal note.. My very good friend was sentenced on Wednesday last week to one year in prison for a horrific crime.  love the man, hate the crime? Isn't that what they say?? ugh.. Always in the back of my mind..... I am reminded of this crappy event every day when I walk into the drama room that he and I made a home for hundreds of students...

3. During the past two weeks, I have been at rehearsal, which means Izee is a mere figment of my imagination... I think I remember having a 4 year old?? Or was I dreaming?? She is in desparate need of her momma's love and time...... (one more week.  one more week).

As like everyone reading this, our lives are filled with "stress"!!!  I used to eat crappy food to make myself feel better, but, I can't do that anymore.. I struggle to find something else to do to relieve the tension!!!  Especially since I can't exercise yet, (another doctors order), so.... I wait... and I "think" about eating when I'm stressed out... (I think I can, I think I can, I think I can!!!!)

Weekly Cravings:  (or should I say, "foods I shouldn't have eaten this week, but did) within 10 minutes on Friday night, I ate a doughnut, left over beans and chicken stir fry from panda and 12 potato chips with dip.  I tasted DELISH however, 3 1/2 hours later I was hunched over in the fetal position crying in pain.  My body has rid itself of all the crappy toxins and yucky stuff, I think I confused it when I ate junk food.  Who would have thunk that I wouldn't be used to eating crap!!??  Honestly, it isn't worth cheating.... if the result of consuming junk food is 2-3 hours in horrific abdominal pain, I would just assume eat healthy!!! GRRR!!  who am I?

MY JOURNEY CONTINUES!!! (or should I say, my journey takes a three week hiatus??  ugh)

"S" Word Monday, April 4, 2011




The Honey Moon Is "OVER"

  Well, Well, Well.....  Another weigh in... ugh...

The honeymoon is over... this was a HARD week!! one word for ya.... CRAVINGS!!!!!!

I have to admit, I was dreading the weigh in this week... I have cheated a few times, but, not too horrible of a cheat...  I am waiting for my weight loss number to decrease, but, it seems I am on a roll!!

Weight Lost this week (3 weeks 2 days into journey) 7.5 pounds
TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS: "26" pound
Weight to lose til goal: 100.5 pounds

Week in review:
This was the meltdown week!! 
I am not hungry... not at all, however... I am "STARVING" when it comes to my cravings!!

I am not used to eating healthy and my mindset has been that I'm, somehow, being punished with all this healthy food.... It isn't that I don't like what I'm eating, it just isn't the creamy, fattening, buttery deliciousness that I'm used to... Also, I'm not eating fast food for lunch every day...

The nurse kicked my patootie this morning... Put everything in check for me... I was bawling on Wednesday night because my family was eating wendy's and I was eating "george forman grilled chicken and a salad.... again"...  MAN I have really felt sorry for myself this week, regarding my eating...  But she devoted  her morning to a "counselling session" for me (laughing) and I'm back on track again...   It really motivates me to continue on this path, when I see the weight loss!! 26 pounds?? What the heck?? GO ME!!!

Weekly Cravings: PPPIIIIZZZZZZZZZZAAAAA how I miss you my long lost friend... all your gooey yumminess and fattening cheese...... (this was one of my cheats... I took "one" bite off the tip of Gabee's pizza Saturday night.... and it tasted so yummo!!!

Here's what........Today is another day...  The beginning of a new week where I will "HOPEFULLY" not have as many cravings!!  I get to eat apples and oranges... Yummy steak and chicken, shrimp and veal.  any green vegie on the planet and tomatoes... I am not wanting for anything, except fast food and bread!!   And I'm only without those for another 30 days... Then I'm done detoxing and ready for a different diet!!

MY JOURNEY CONTINUES!!!